Soo tonight I went to my favorite used dvd store. I bullshitted for a few hours and selected some things. 2 comedies a horror and an indie. Anger Management,Me Myself & Irene, The Wackness, and Stephen King’s It. Without realizing it before purchasing is they all have a weird correlation with me(cept for it). I’m too tired to go into how but if you knew me you could probably see it. Anyways if you live in new york city hit up BookOff used dvds,cd’s,books,and video games. 45th snd 5th.
A wasted day. It started with a picture of her which led to a phone call which led to meeting for lunch. After being her victim for soo long my demeanor should’ve been that of callous nature like it usually is. But like a kicked dog who knows no better I was excited and elated to see her. I met her at her job. We then went to a resturaunt near by, and ate. Where there should’ve been a goodbye there was a extension of time where better judgement was lost. A hand held turned into a hug then she put on her lip gloss. Her eyes closed and her lips touched mine. Over and over again. We were like we were all those months ago. Embraced and enveloped in this facade of lovers. A day of joking and talks of a false future. Just like us heh… We stop for coffee and her phone goes off. She becomes secretive. It’s not in my place to question her but I do which makes her even more defensive. I’m not stupid and I know better. She then tells me to stop thinking and live and love in this moment, but it’s deeper than that for me. We shared something special and crazy. We killed an angel in our stupidity. I drop her off. She asks if she’ll see me again. I tell her call when it’s neccesary. She frowns then smiles. I had a good day she says. I did too I reply. I walk away to only get on this train and swim in my thoughts. My fault….