On a humid summer night
The air stinks of sex…
Posibilities possibly not possible
Thick warm moisture humming with electricty
To a restless mind
In search of fire
Finding only the the embers of a dying excitement
Take yo ass home.
I’ve been distant in many aspects of my life. I’ve been in a make shift chrysalis converting the bullshit into the dope. The gym has been my headquarters pushing my movement foward. I gotta say it’s funny. The more I change the less I have to say. Kinda like Silent Bob when I do speak I want my shit to be profound and insightful. Of course that’s more than likely not gonna happen but hey. I also find more respect and admiration with the newer version of myself. Moreso for the physical. I won’t lie it’s amazing. More inspiration cause this isnt the beginning and it sure as shit isn’t the end. It’s all part of the happening.
Today tudey Today! Not a damn thing happened. It was a lacadaisical lazy uninspired day. Everything is clean. I didn’t have to go the gym. No calls or text. Just myself and my massive library of dvds. It would be nice have company but … It’s whetever.
Tonight was dope. Cashed my paycheck went to vapiano had a light dinner. Was about to call it a night I got a call to hang out with my friend samad and his army buddy. So we had to wait for this guy at a chase bank. We stood inside for literally 15 mins,and these cops almost arrest us for loitering. Which was total bullshit. This bitch stood in there long before we got there and even as we stood outside she stilll stood there never asked by the cops about shit. I mean we werent even drunk. Whatever…. So this army dude finally shows up we got to this bar near nyu better yet washington square park.We just hung out had some bomb ass nachos. Droped the guy back to his car. Then went another bar had a few more beers. Then drunkely went to 16 Handles and stole madd free samples and left. Being drunk in New York City is by far one t best experiences one can have. Just makes you feel alive. Welp my buzz is far gone and I just finished watching the perks of being a wallflower. Great film fucking amazing film watch it if you get a chance. Anyways now I don’t know what to do. Gym in the morning or rather when I wake up.
Dim your lights
Turn them low
Cause don’t you know they attract flies.
Flies masquerading as butterflies. Near the end of their lives. They wanna dance in your beauty. Attracted to the warm glow. You’re glad to know it. All you wanted you wanted to do was shine. And they wanna dance before they die Then blame you for their fall. Crispy burnt wings. Twitching carcasses. Sullying your luminous nature. So turn them low. Dim them cause you’re attracting flies…..
I’m on a quest. A quest to be as far away from who i’ve been in the previous years. Especially last year. Too much bad shit happened last year. So I quit smoking funny shit is it wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. I’ve been working hard on my fitness. I’m making progress with my clients. For those of you who don’t know. I work as community habilitation specialist/ respite worker for kids with autism and special needs. I’ve also decided to head back to school. Besides this post I’ve told no one about my current endevours. Silence makes it real for me, but at this time I’m ahead so why not tell somebody? Peace…..
This is the cliche can’t sleep Why am I awake!?!? bullshit post that everybody post on every social media site. Bear with me… My body is sore as shit and you guessed it I can’t sleep. It’s a little more to it than that. My mind is full. Mainly with filthy thoughts and other non filthy rather serious things…. That’s it I know I have shit to do later but I can’t sleep.